I miss for being loved. totally miss it. Nope. It doesn't like that I'm regreting that I waste every chances for have a boy friend or I'm so depressed that I've been single OR, jealous of fact that my sister has a boyfriend (little). Maaan even my labil little sister who loves Artemis Fowl more than her bf HAS a BF. I'm afraid that i've changed to a person who thinks that a happy-ending-story doesn't exist. Or soul mate is never real. I'm afraid that I've turned into someone who is totally ambitious. That I've turned into someone who is totally different. To someone who thinks that she doesn't need anyone. That she is too great to be attached to someone. And someone who looks too strong and everbody think that she is very though. I went to clinic last week. And Mbak Pingkan, the psychologist told me that I should downgrade my standards. I shouldn't force my self too much. And I should do something that for my own good.

Seriously, my always-happy-always-smiling-face is not always my expression. I'm an introvert (eventhough everybody think that it is impossible that I'm an introvert). I don't like to share what I feel. I never share about how how I feel. I never tell people the real reason why I cried. I don't like crowd too much. Sometimes I like being alone. I don't like to talk unnecessary stuff people. I love being accompanied with someone in silent. I hate when people disturb me when I'm alone. I hate people who asks me unimportant questions.

I do care about what people say. But only give a little attention to it. I'm not letting anyone take any pieces from me.

Dear you

Well boy you're a grown-up, why don't you act like a grown-up? You acted like a 6-year-old kid that begging for attention. I guess even she's better than you to get my attention.You might be 4 times older than her, but it seems that your mental age can't be compared with your chronological age. Maybe for you teasing me is like a wonderful experience. Do you think that's funny? I don't think the same, by the way. You better update your jokes, and please please, get a life.

Pleas be mature. Act like all grown-ups do.

Sincerely, me

I was going to sleep when I had those ideas in my mind.

I had a wonderful day. Adventurous, exactly. I did my social psychology's final exam well ( I'm good at multiple choices, not essay. That's why I almost failed on weekly test). Mbak Dian's review on my mid test(essay) isn't as bad as I thought. I just have to add my thesis statement, and I have to fix some mistakes on my writing. I wrote 'kecenderungan' as 'kecendrungan' (I missed the 'e' letter). Something like that. And my temporary score is 60! Pretty good, i guess.

It wasn't 10 o'clock when i had done my test. I went to social psychology division on the 3rd floor, and took my essay. After that, I met Nadoy, and I went to the train station.

And now I'm gonna tell you about my super-adventurous-day:

I asked the ticket seller for a train to 'Sudirman'. And he said "The economy train scheduled at 12.00" And I was like "I've got no time to wait oh gooooood" So I decided to buy a ticket to Manggarai, and take another train to Sudirman. I bought the ticket, and I didn't have to wait too long for my train. I crossed the railways, and ta daaaaa my train came :3! The train was quite full. So i stood till the train reached Manggarai.

After Manggarai, I bought a ticket to Tanah Abang. I waited for 30 minutes till the train came. The train was a blueline, or 'lingkar Ciliwung'. But it stops at Sudirman. Distance between Manggarai and Sudirman isn't too far. In minutes I already at Sudirman.

Sudirman's train station is pretty big. It is modern, and was designed for workers. It has 4 escalators, 2 on each platform. It has 2 levels, first floor is connected to the street, and the second floor is connected to the protocol street. Platforms are on the 1st level. So I got to the 2nd floor by escalator, and left the sudirman train station.

Outside the station, there's a pedestrian path. I walked to the TransJakarta bus stop, and bought a ticket. I wanted to go to Blok M, but I didn't know which one is the right stop. I asked the security, and he said if I want to go to Blok M, the bus stop is the one in the middle. I walked along the overpass, and got to the middle bus stop. There I waited for the bus. First bus was too full, and I got the second bus. The 2nd bus wasn't as full as the first, so I can sit down, and enjoying the view of Jakarta. I planned to got down at Alpus, but suddenly I got down at setia budi -__- I don't know why I did that.

So I after I got down at setiabudi, I went straight to Sahid, where my mom works. And spent the time until we had to pick up my sister at her school.

So.. that's my adventure for today. How about you? :D

1st selection

Been a long time since my last post. And I have some great news lately :D

I passed the first selection for being a liaison officer in Sea Games 2011 that will be held in Jakarta, 11th-22nd November, 2011. Uber excited, and can't wait till 1st august to get further notification! :D And my short term is almost over, and the final exam is on 28th July 2011. And there are psyfest, piastro, dapur. Well I'm the staff of sponsorship committee, and till now, we haven't find any company that would like to kindly give their money for our event. But I'm sure this psyfest 2011 gonna be a superdupergreat event

Oh ya and well now I'm saving my money to buy a camera, a DSLR camera. But kinda hard to choose between canon or nikon since I don't have any experience with both cams. I need the easy-to-use one, and easy-to-handle. Ozora told me that canon is better for indoor places than Nikon. But yaa still confuse to buy between Nikon and Canon.

And since fluent in English is one of the main criteria to be a liaison officer, I will make my self to use English as much as I can everyday, until the 2nd selection! wish me luck :3

good night, kisses and hugs. xoxoxo nadhila nuhanisa

B

ps: I think I need a grammar-nazi, since I'm not good at grammar. but I'll try. I need to improve my English woohoo

23:41

Okeee postingan (yang sudah cukup lama) ini bukan bermaksud rasis. Ini dari pengalaman gue sendiri.

Sejak gue lahir, gue berinteraksi dengan orang-orang Sunda. Ayah gue adalah orang sunda, nini aki gue orang sunda. Setulen tulennya sunda. Gue selalu menganggap orang sunda adalah orang yang ramah. Dalam artian ini, mereka sopan saat berbicara. Berhati-hati dalam berbicara. Mengerti perasaan orang dalam berbicara.

yah... sampai sekarang. Bukan, bukan tiba-tiba gue mengecap orang sunda yang aneh-aneh. Bukan gue langsung menstereotipkan mereka. Bukan.

Gue terkadang ngga suka sama cara ngomong bokap gue. Mungkin maksudnya biasa aja, tapi yang terdengar di kuping gue itu jutek, judes. Sedangkan, gue itu, kalau dijutekin orang, bisa langsung ajak ribut. Kecuali kalau gue males banget ladenin, yaudah diemin. Gue bisa langsung ngomong ke bokap gue "Kenapa jutek banget sih ngomongnya" dengan lebih jutek. Nyokap gue selalu bilang "Cara ayah ngomong emang begitu"

Malah baru kejadian ini. Lagi ngobrol sama temen gue. Mungkin maksudnya dia itu becanda ngomong kyk gitu. Tapi... karena ngomongnya di singkat... yaudah kesan yang gue dapet beda. Jadi males di gue. ngomongnya kayak ngga ada embel-embel becandanya. Diemin aja deh.

Ada beberapa hal yang gue agak nggak suka dari cara mereka berbicara. Itu.... kayaknya mereka hemat kata. hemat ngomong. Maksud baik mau nyingkat-nyingkat pembicaraan, walhasil kesan jutek. Emang bokap gue ngomong itu hanya seperlunya. Sering jadi salah paham. Yang nggak enak siapa? kedua belah pihak.

Mau gue ngomong jangan pendek-pendek ngomongnya, takut dikira gue nggak menghargai kebudayaan mereka. Atau nggak menghargai cara mereka berbicara. Gue jadi bingung sendiri mau ngomong apa.

eng.. itu aja sih. Sebenernya masih ada tapi gue nggak tau gimana gue harus nulisnya. Keselnya berlebih sih. Cuma... mungkin harus dimaklumi karena itu emang cara mereka bicara. Termasuk mungkin itu cara gue bicara.

Selamat tidur! Cheers!

Night

It's 01:16, and I am a bit sleepy but..

yeah yeah saya mencoba membuat blog ini menjadi lebih feminim haha. seriously.
Ngga tau kenapa tapi mungkin.. ini akan jadi tempat gue curcol atau apapun :s entahlah. Efek baru bangun jam 12 siang huuuu. cuma cuma... ada begitu banyak yang pengen gue tulis, tapi susah untuk nulisin satu-satu :( sowii. What I'm going to do rite now is editing my blog and am gonna check if there's any information in siak. so enjoy and good night ppl :)






01:19.

(lebih dari) Sedikit curcol malem-malem haha

OKeee gue menulis postingan ini di tempat dokter Eva, karena ade gue sakit, dan satu-satundokter yang ada jam segini. Jadi..yaudah, mau gimana lai -___- apalagi gue cuma pake kaos, celandek, dan ngga tau kenapa gue pake flat.__. aneh deh haha.
Tomo.....dachi. ngga ngerti kenapa, gue kayaknya ada aja masalah disini. mmm sebagian besar gara-gara gue sepertinya. Karenaa.... mungkin egoism gue tinggi kali? hem hemm dunno. Gara-gara saking egoisnya gue, dan 'keajaiban' gue untuk berpikir yang ngga-ngga (baca: berprasangka jelek) maka bisa dibilang, gue hampir, hell yeah, h-a-m-p-i-r kehilangan temen gue sendiri. graooo. tu?lol. serius, ini geblek banget :( amat merugikan gue. masa gue harus kehilangan teman gitu aja sih? dikira nyari temen gampang apa huhu
tapi masalahnya... yang sekarang beda. Masalah jauh lebih kompleks, dan endingnya... ya begitu aja. Si temen gue ini punya kebiasaan yang amat amat gue benci, bahkan gue udah jelasin kedia, paling ngga biar dia ngga berbuat seperti itu kalau lagi sama gue. Cuma... ya.... ngga ngefek :( endingnya adalah kita berdua jauh-jauhan, haaaah. yaudah. ngga ada kabar samsek, pergi yaudah pergi ajaaaaa. Terakhir ketemua udah lama, dan gue selama jalan bete banget karena dia manggil gue dengan kasar, seenak jidat. Ya kali ada cewek yang diterima digituin. kecuali emang bener-bener mental baja -___- erwwwwwwhBoleh lah lo ngomong 'ya elah gitu aja rebek banget sih lo' tapi masalahnya ngga segampang itu. jauh jauh aaamaaaaat jauh dari gampang. Ini masalah super yang rebek naudzubillah mindzalik, dan gue.... ngga tau kapan bisa selese :( karena jadinya jauh jauhan huuuuuuuuu :'(

yasudlah ya. Night people. have a nice sleep.

nb: hei lo disana thankyou ya waktunya buat....semuanya deh haha maaf ya kalo ada salah, have a great life :)